Last night I cried myself to sleep. I was so scared that I am starting to lose some of our memories together. I tried to recall what we did last Christmas, Valentines’ day, each other’s birthday. It hurts that those important chapters of life we spent together, they fade with time.

At work, I seem normal. Clock in, clock out. And the day went by.

I hate time at home. Tears running, like an open wound. I cannot explain what I feel. It is so painful as if I was literally torn part.

At times, I feel numb. I am not myself anymore. I stare without watching, hear without listening. I forget things. I am out of my mind.