i'm now in a situation it is clearer than ever that you actually were never there for me, not even back then
i mean never
and i hate you for that

then i'm wondering, do you hate me back? do i ever cross your mind during the day? or have you already forgotten about me?
i wouldn't ask, cuz i have too much pride

it still hurt when i think about how i can mean nothing to you now, as if it would be better if only you could hate me